the most fun on a bun!

new job

Sat, 11 Nov 2006 02:38:22 GMT

bartending at the Pilsner Inn on church and market on friday morning/afternoons. Yay! I love working for tips!

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 18:15:12 GMT

currently looking for a job bartending. If anyone knows of one in SF, please let me know!

halloween

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 03:58:43 GMT

There were only 16 people at the 6:00pm tour on halloween. A very, VERY poor showing. I was bummed and I fear it showed a little in my presentation. The fact that when I got out of the hotel at approx 6:50 there were already about 80 people in line for the 7:00pm show, and I think the total was nearer to 100.

I was really hoping to make a few 100$ and instead I hardly made any. Poor me.

I even had a new tale to tell that evening, one I had just recently researched, and while it went over generally well, I couldn't help but feel lackluster.

Bad performer. BAD!

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 22:46:44 GMT

I'm sitting in a cafe right now listening to two employees argue. How tacky!

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 02:23:40 GMT

I'm wracking my brain to find something interesting to talk about, but nothing comes to mind.

I started bartending school monday. I've spent the last two mornings making fake cocktails and hoping this isn't a big waste of money. The proof will come at the end when I am asking for live leads for good barkeep jobs.

If not, money is going to be awfully tight 'come the beginning of december. And with my kid's biz in its embryonic stages, that'll really slow things down. Boo...

Jim said something to me that made me feel better- he said that SF is an artificially large pond. It's really a small town, but getting a good (magic) rep here holds a large weight. You know your rep is growing when someone starts taking pot-shots at you.

This town is CERTAINLY not big enough to talk shit about someone and not have it get back to them -it took all of 8 hours to get back to me when ***someone*** was talking shit about me. 8 hours... Wow.

Let's see... where is that DLSE claim form?

Sun, 22 Oct 2006 20:40:09 GMT

Saw "The Prestige" last night. One of the better movies I've seen this year. The end left me feeling a little hollow, in a way that I'd rather not go into for fear of spoiling it for others, but suffice to say that the characters are all tragic, and come out no better for it all.

Bowie was great. If I didn't know it was him I would have NEVER guessed it was him. That man is getting OLD.

Wonderfully non-linear plot which I personally loved. Though I heard some people say that they "didn't understand it".

Sun, 22 Oct 2006 20:26:54 GMT

rewriting a script is like a dental check-up.

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 01:47:08 GMT

ugh... sometimes even positive criticism sucks.
How DARE someone tell me about stuff that I already know is an issue!?!

Fortunately I have a few days to clean up the weak points in my presentation.

Thu, 19 Oct 2006 21:42:45 GMT

I am seriously considering kid's shows as a means of making money in magic after my tenure on the Ghost Hunt is finished.

Do the bartender thing a few days a week and shore up my weekends (saturdays, mostly) performing for the kiddies... A lot of "workers" out there do just that, why not me?

Thu, 19 Oct 2006 21:40:02 GMT

so much has happened to me in the last few months. I am now a tour guide on the SF Ghost hunt - So now I get to add "Ghost Hunter" and "supernatural Consultant" to my ever more credulous resume. Oh yeah... HR people love to see shit like THAT on a resume...

Last night there were 33 people on the tour!!! I was nervous- that's more people than I've ever performed solo to in my life. All things considered, it went well. People went "Oh my god!" and "Gasp!" exactly when they were supposed to, and that made me feel good.

come check out the tour:

http://www.sfghosthunt.com/

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 18:26:43 GMT

>grumbles<
>turns over<

huh?

a blot of electronic ink

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 05:29:40 GMT

I've just got not time for live journal any more. Life to be lived and all....

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 05:29:23 GMT

can't wait for Saroya and Sam to move out here... I hope they do OK out here!

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 04:16:14 GMT

hard to believe it's been 7 months without regular internet access in the Bay Area.
What the hell?
I may have to keep this journal updated regardless....

strange memories of destinies turned away...

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 05:17:28 GMT

I've isolated a cause for bad feelings I've had for a few years now. It's certainly not a root cause of my misery, but a contributing factor, no doubt. For the last few years, it seems like many/ most of the people whom I have shared some very strong experiences with in the past have departed or moved on in life. Lately it's been difficult to forge new relationships with people, and I have very few people left from the past to share my destiny with- or so it would seem.
It kinda makes me feel how a ghost must feel- moving through life without being a part of it... This past week of solitude has showed me this, and it's been a positive experience (though it might now seem that way from the tone of this post) I only hope I can bring something out of this when I return to the mundanity and casualness of social interaction with roommates/workmates etc. Truly it's just that sort of contact that makes it more difficult- it's very real in the sense that we must all get along and be happy in each other's presence, but at the same time it's very, very fake due to the artificial construct that put us all there in the 1st place... it's not like I have much to do with those people outside their respective environments!
This causes a sort of... disassociation? that is very hard to reconcile in any other way but a type of sadness and enui.
I'm a social person and I need other people, and now I've got fewer then ever since moving to a new city.

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 23:56:06 GMT

looks like Saroya blew me off tody.
*sigh*

Why the Hell does Lyndon LaRouche have it in for George Shultz so bad, anyhow?

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 06:47:36 GMT

Quentin? I am looking in your direction!

In the past week or so I have been approached, for money and membership, by a number of... Interesting type-

The Moonies
The LaRoucheies
The RamKrishnaies (is that right?)
That group of chanting and evangelizing Bhuddists that I don't know the name of...

And also I've seen evidence of free-range satanists, the OTO (in some itteration), a number of flavors of pagans, Eckankar and the Scientologists (they are actually quite big here...)

Berkeley is pretty amazing in that respect- if you have a cult you want to join, chances are there is a local chapter somewhere in this 'berg.

Despite the fact that all these wonderful people want to be my friends, I still feel a bit lonely and cut off... Oh well- back to my little closet of a bedroom and to hit the books, whom will always be my friends no matter what.

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 04:55:08 GMT

what to do?
what to say?
*I spend a lot of time in my little closet of a bedroom reading books and studying magic, and way too much time at work. The commute is a bit opperesive...
The manager quit "un"expectedly (we all knew she would- it was a question of when), and there is a sense of chaos and happiness at the store that is very strange- we are running out of everything because she didn't do the last order, and we are all overworked, understaffed, and underpaid- but at least she is gone- and that is such a good thing!
*I am a little stir crazy because I feel kinda trapped in Berkeley ( the BART only runs till 12ish ) and with nowhere to stay in SF overnight, I think I'd better get used to that fact 'till I can get back to Chi-Town and retrieve my motorcycle. Fortunately there is a nice late night cafe on University ave that I've made my home away from home, and it seems to be the refuge of choice for a number of interesting types...

usually I dislike quizes, but this one is interesting...

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 04:46:15 GMT

You scored as Buddhism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Buddhism. Do more research on Buddhism and possibly consider becoming Buddhist, if you are not already.

In Buddhism, there are Four Noble Truths: (1) Life is suffering. (2) All suffering is caused by ignorance of the nature of reality and the craving, attachment, and grasping that result from such ignorance. (3) Suffering can be ended by overcoming ignorance and attachment. (4) The path to the suppression of suffering is the Noble Eightfold Path, which consists of right views, right intention, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right-mindedness, and right contemplation. These eight are usually divided into three categories that base the Buddhist faith: morality, wisdom, and samadhi, or concentration. In Buddhism, there is no hierarchy, nor caste system; the Buddha taught that one's spiritual worth is not based on birth.

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Buddhism

58%

Paganism

58%

Hinduism

50%

Satanism

50%

Islam

42%

agnosticism

38%

Christianity

33%

Judaism

21%

atheism

13%

Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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you see the strangest things, or rather "I" see the strangest things...

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 00:36:18 GMT

last night I was taking a midnight bike ride, and as I pulled up to a stoplight I saw a really old-type Berkeley hippy pushing a cart down the street. He may or may not have been homeless (hard to tell in this town). Before the light changed a Corvette pulled up along side of me and driving it was a dude who could have old-cart-pushing hippy's twin brother. UNCANNY!

I did a double take.

Tonight is Luke Jeremy- British Mentalist, doing a show/ lecture for Misdirections Magic Shop. I'm really excited about this as I have just picked up a copy of Max Maven's "Prism" and am full of new concepts to test out. Seeing Luke perform should just about do it for me, too...

Must find more time to practice!

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 00:59:38 GMT

It happened again.

Every once in a while I get a real feel for how utterly insignificant my life is in the greater scheme of things- like Zaphod in the Total Perspective Vortex. It usually hits like a bolt out of the sky. This used to be a very mind blowing experience- like "getting" a Zen koan and Satori follows...
This infrequent experience has now been pretty much worked into the fabric of my personality (such as it is!) and while the totality of the instant is usually not forefront on my mind, much how many people say that you never truly come "down" from the very first acid trip you do, it's part of me and what I do.

These moments are much like taking subsequent acid trips.

I find this experience to be very liberating as the heaviness of my crappy mundane life is momentarily stripped away, and I feel as I know all human beings must feel at their core and in their subconscious.

By the way... YO MAMA!!

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 00:19:27 GMT

Imagine the Creator as a stand-up comedian-
and at once the world becomes explicable.
-H.L. Mencken

3 Things (or: the Story of My Life)

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 00:17:17 GMT

Three things cannot be retrieved:
The arrow once sped from the bow
The word spoken in haste
The missed opportunity.

-Ali the Lion, Caliph of Islam,
Son-in-law of Mohammed the Prophet

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 23:25:48 GMT

With 12 minutes left in my "express" library online session I marvel at the irony of the situation- Now that I actually have interesting things to write, I have no regular internet access, and probably will not for the foreseeable future. My little closet in Berkeley will be draining most of my resources, and the rest will be socked away for my planned summer excursion to Chi-Town to retrieve and fix my Honda, and the 2 weeks or so it'll take to get it back across the continental divide. No computer for Gaddy...

Any of you geeks out there thinking of upgrading to the newest and latest computerized gizmo? Consider donating your old system to ME instead of that stupid, greedy cancer society or whatever!

"Chapter 24" for those who are interested...

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 19:52:15 GMT

Chapter 24

All movement
is accomplished
in six stages,and the seventh Brings return
The seven is the number of the young light
It forms when darkness is increased by one, change return success
Going and coming without error
Action brings good fortune
Sunset

The time is with the month of winter solstice
When the change is due to come
Thunder in the Earth, the course of Heaven
Things cannot be destroyed once and for all

Change return success
Going and coming without error
Action brings good fortune
Sunset
Sunrise

All movement is accomplished in six stages
And the seventh brings return
The seven is the number of the young light
It forms when darkness is increased by one

Change return success
Going and coming without error
Action brings good fortune
Sunset
Sunrise

Written by Syd Barrett